Afraid.

As the darkness crept in, I began to realise the severity of the matter at hand. It was that time of year once more. The ONLY time of the year where I will be inundated in perturbation and fear. What are we afraid of, if not of the supernatural.

When nocturne blooms every sound becomes aberrantly magnified, scintillations of light augmenting all the horrid thoughts in my mind. Even the familiar "tick tick tick" of the clocks becomes ever so dementing. 


It was at the break of dawn that I finally realised how much I missed the Sun. And how all this time it had helped to preserve my sanity, how it drives the scarecrows away.


-Zarae.7IsTheNumber.

Sometimes I just really wish I can just shut myself down. Stop having to feel all these emotions and fears. To be able to feel is just so overrated these days.... Imagine not having to feel guilt, nor anxiety; not having to live in constant trepidation of the constant expectations and "sanguine" prospects of life.
I'm just tired after so much struggling. So very fucking tired.

If life is just a game then I fucking had enough of it.


-Zarae.TheSeriouslyDepressed.
Death is but the start of something marvellous. Rejoice in my passing.

An Orange Libation

After all these years, this simple little orange coloured drink is still my favourite. Wonder why they call Orange (Fruit) orange (Colour) ?!

I guess some things never really do change. After everything I have done in the name of love, I'm ultimately still here. Alone and unloved. Perhaps I don't know how to love. Maybe I was not meant to love.  
Inside every Hero lurks a monster, a demon waiting to be awakened.

Maybe some of us are just like that. Not build to love. Yet, some nights I lie awake thinking, dreaming of what may become of us. If only you knew. If only you could see that you meant the world to me.

-Zarae.Carrot Juice

Lacerations. The new wrist band for emo kids.

Ahh--Memory impairment, the free prize at the bottom of every empty vodka bottle. -Sheldon Cooper.

-Zarae.Quirky

The girl of my broken dream.

I would once do anything for you to smile at me. But now, I just wish that you'll smile more often. Now that I chose to give up, I just wish that you'll stay happy and cheerful. The girl whose very smile has brighten up my world.

For you are, the girl of my broken dream.

-Zarae.StrongHeart

It is the deep breath we heave before deciding to kill another that defines us. We are human, Not bloodthirsty warmongering demons. Resuscitate your faith in your lord. Beg his mighty grace cometh on swift wings of angels. You are going to need all the aid you can muster. For we are no easy prey.

-Zarae.DreamBound

Light.

This new mixed feeling is rather fascinating. In all the wrong sense that is.

Food for thought: how would things have changed if we 've never met ?! If we had never crossed paths before. I wonder what would it be like?

That insignificant candle that lights up your darkness. Light of the new world.
-Zarae.Illuminate

Parents

Why do children neglect and abandon their own parents. Pushing them away and tossing them aside as though they have outlived their purpose. Dereliction, dersertion and abandonment. Like pieces of tissue that are no longer of use.


Zarae.Progenitor

And the seraph angel descends. Then, all hell breaks loose.

It is that tiny spark that rekindles the impetuous scintillations.
-Zarae.Forgetting you.

Happy birthday my friend.
On another note, I realised that I was'nt as good as I thought I was.

-Zarae

My Brother

I am your friend. Therefore I have to put up with your incessant drivel. I take it because I care and not because I like it. I just hate to be taken granted for.

-Zarae.WalkingOnTheFineLine

10 Years On

Ten years from now, when we meet again, I will once again remember all these feelings I had for you. Something that if possible I will hide from you, something that you will never ever know. 

And hopefully by then, I would be able to say that I have found someone even better.

I thought I had fallen into the abyss, a chasm so deep that I would never be able to climb out of again. But alas, I stand here, stronger than ever and knowing for a fact that I will become greater than before; growing painfully by living through all these setbacks and mistakes. It felt excruciating to have to leave you. But darling, if you must know, we are of different worlds. You, a princess and I a flake of snow. You are looking for a Prince that I can never ever be. 

-Zarae.NextValentine

More bitter than sweet memories.

-Zarae.TheDeadPoet

Eyes are so over rated these days....Why do you need eyes when one can't see through all the lies, deceit and treachery. 

Yet my world becomes innocent and beautiful in your prescence. 

I really want things to go back to how it was in the past. Before any of these fuck happened.

-Zarae. It felt good to love and to forget.

What if I did nothing at all and just waited for you ?
It just does'nt feel right. Not trying, pretending not to care at all.
Its just not me. Its not who I am.

I am the true voice of reason. Listen to what I have to say and be set free.

-Zarae.Unloving.Unmoving.