Powerless

We are all so small, so powerless in so many ways. Even the mightiest and influential of us are nothing but mere specks compared to everything else.

In movies or books, you always see the egotistic antagonist shown the comparison between him and the universe, only to realize how insignificant he really is. He has a mental breakdown and self-destructs.

That egotistic villain, I'm him right now. Truth and short fuse; not a very good brew.

-Zarae.Infinite.Indefinite. 

Family.

It's really ironic to be saying this, especially after what the previous posts are encouraging...but, I've decided to quit for good.

I am quitting alcohol.

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It all started with a case of acid reflux. And the cause for said reflux? Alcohol. Like duh...

With that being said, my remaining grandfather, decided today to share with me my family's history with alcoholism, gambling and smoking. Truth be told, there were quite a lot of shitty examples before me.

Liver cancer, heart cancer, amputation and from various sources ranging from distant uncles to my great great grandfather himself.

He was sincere. He really cared. And for those of you who didn't know, the Chinese people rarely show affection like this.

Therefore, I'm staying away right now. I'll be staying away from all the shit and disease for him and for myself.

-Zarae.PartyWithoutPoison.

Let's get drunk on high !

Legally abusing alcohol ever since I left you.

-Zarae.ICantEraseYou.

S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W

-Zarae.PsychedelicFireFly

Phantasm

I forgot what it's like to be happy; to be ever so carefree, not having to be shackled down by everyday life. Sometimes I just want to take off and run away. Run away and never come back.

I drink too much these days. It's hard to be happy when you've already forgotten what it feels like.

-Zarae.Frown.

Just because I'm broken.

Can it still be called a prize if you begged for it ?

-Zarae.Fractum

GRAVITY

The hardest thing to do in the morning is to open your eyes and tell yourself that you can get through it; after doing the same stupid shit everyday for the past year.

-Zarae.YouWontWearMeDown.