For once in a very long time, I found myself exceptionally broke. Left beggared and humbled much. The incident yesterday brought to my attention that I, with much regret to say, have been spoilt rotten to the bones. This sudden epiphany smacked me right in the face. I cannot live without money, more so than every other person. The addiction with material goods has left me... well, dependant and compulsively hooked. The fanatism that accompanies the inability to spend has drained me physically like some form of real ailment. The malady leaves me irritated and frustrated, very much to my dismay.
Progress in my academic studies has been slowed. Procrastination being one of the main forms of impeding forces; physical exhaustion from games and lack of motivation also, just to name a few more. This miasma of tardiness and lethargy has definitely posed itself as one of the more troublesome matters at hand.
Sigh... I just need more time. Yes. More time. About 150 years would do.
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Jar of hearts. To be played gently in the background when my eulogy is to be read. If ever.
-Zarae.Ithil'quessir
Anarya.Yavannie
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