We used to be

He made me think of you again. The wonderful time I've spent alongside you...laughing and clowning around. Watching you smile whenever I make a joke...and when you laugh, my heart just...my heart just...

I just thought that maybe...just maybe after the past 10 years of pitiful, I would finally deserve someone like you. Who am I fucking kidding. I'm just a fucking nobody. All ways was and mostly likely always will be.

I guess tonight will be another sleepless night. I would spend hours staring at my ceiling, listening to the voices in my head yelling at each other. Until finally the oppressive forlorn wears me out.

-Zarae.